Saturday, January 9, 2010

Have a little faith..

With my husband out with an injury, I was on my own for my snowy run today. The temperature reached a big 9 degrees by the time I left and the wind chill helped us out to make it feel -3. The start was cold, there's no getting around it. But as your body slowly starts moving and your muscles get a kick from the increased blood flow, you start to feel like it's any other run. You don't have to go far or go fast. You just simply have to go.

I have found myself surrounded by negative thinkers lately. People that are excuse makers and justifiers. I  see these people and I know that they don't think they do. I don't think I do it. And I see myself getting into their mindset the more I'm with them. So what do you do? Cut out all the negative people? Truly think about it, who's left? I have to keep my wits about me and keep my faith in myself above all other criticisms.   When everyone else tells me I shouldn't, or can't, only I know what I can and should do. When it comes to changing my life, finding enlightenment, and physically pushing myself, I have so many people wanting to keep me where I am. Isn't that crazy? Well, It is. But I understand it. Unfortunately, I used to do that too. It is much more comfortable for you to have others failing at life right by your side. Why do we have to be so afraid of change? What do you think will happen to you? What are you afraid will happen to me? I just don't want to be where I was, and that is not a bad thing.

Here's some good uses for a negative word: Don't be afraid for me, or for you. Don't stop your life because others are afraid. Don't use their excuses as a justification for your lack of effort or for your lack of change. If someone else can't do it, too many times they will want you to not do it either. They will push the bad foods on you, or make smart comments about your diet, or how next time you'll be eating it anyway. They will tell you how dangerous it is to run, to play a sport. How they can't run or their friend got hurt and how horribly it affected their life. How about a metabolism problem?... too tired to do anything and can't lose an ounce. I take a lot of thyroid medicine each day, because my thyroid is toxic and is crushed by a mass in my neck. And it did make me feel terrible, and it did make me gain a lot of this weight but I choose to put the food in my own mouth and I choose to sit on my ass. It's my problem!  There is medicine for it though, so take it and remove the excuse! It won't fix it though, you have to put in the effort to make it work. And if your spouse won't support you, help you when you need it, support you in what you need to do, it doesn't mean you don't do it. It doesn't mean you can't do it. It means you will have to do it on your own so you can be happy. You may have to be more empathetic to why they don't. When you are happy, you can bring everyone else along with you when they are ready.

Tomorrow is Sunday. The day of the week where we say it starts. The one day where we place our hopes for the future. The one day you might have used during this past week to put all your hopes for the new you to get started on this journey. If you want to get out of your rut, get your enlightenment clothes ready tonight. Have your goals set. Shoes and all, by the end of your bed. Know what you want to get out of tomorrow and go for it. Everyday IS your life. Don't miss it. Don't wait on someone else to live it for you.

My life. My quest. My faith in myself.

~ In happiness,


1 comment:

  1. Hey Beth,
    I'm loving your writing. I'm loving you! :) I'm always excited when a new year starts, just thinking about all the ways I'm going to improve myself and my life and my world, etc. etc.. Then after a while, I fizzle out and return to the status quo. After reading all your posts on Thursday night, I finally exercised on Friday for the first time since Bryan was born. Then I did it again today! Thanks for reminding me that only I'm responsible for my life, and if I want more out of it, I'd better get to it! Exercising is only one of the things I want to work on, but that (and eating healthy!) is probably the one that takes the most self-discipline for me. (I've never cared much for discipline, so I've never really pushed the self variety!) Thanks for getting me started. There'll be no stopping me now! :)