Wednesday, January 6, 2010

The difference a snow makes...

I am so happy after my run that I am unable to expand too much about my enlightenment lesson for the evening. I don't even want to think about the negative that caused me to learn a positive because life is so good tonight. I did spend the first part of my run figuring out some problems since I am pretty sure my work day ranked up with one of the worst ever, but now I am on cloud nine. Can you imagine taking a completely horrible day and changing everything with one action? Thirty minutes changed 24 hours. I just ran 2.4 miles in a snowfall, through my wonderful neighborhood, passing the homes of so many people I love, and realized that I am okay. Every time I passed a street light the snow just glistened and the world looked so pure. I have been at the bottom. Life is really hard the last few years. But I am on my way up and it is glorious. My finances are no better, my stepson still needs more compassion than I can find, and my business is still trying to find its footing. The difference is I am better.

I didn't want to go tonight. I saw the snow and decided it was too cold and dangerous. But the run called me... my legs ached a little and the thought of a run wouldn't leave my head. Rather than spend another minute feeling sorry for myself, I decided just to go. If it was too slippery then I'd just come back in. But it wasn't slippery; it isn't slippery. It wasn't too cold; it isn't too cold. It is magical out there! Pack on a few layers and head on out for a few minutes if you can. I know you won't regret it. I am pushing my body because I know it won't fail me. I won't collapse. I won't quit. I am pushing my emotions because I know I can deal with all this. I am stronger than all of this. I will be okay if I step of that ledge. I am good out in that vast openness of existence. I am good with the quietness of my own thoughts... and that is a marathon of its own.

Now I will relax here in my chair... loving the pain in my legs, the cold dampness of my hair from a well earned warm shower, and the soft comfort of my blanket my dear friend made me. Life is good. Go out there and be in it.

~ In happiness,

1 comment:

  1. I had a similar experience with my run yesterday . . . but the difference is I wanted to run, but I couldn't get things in sync - but then, magicially it all came together and I was SO glad I stuck with it through the tough spots. Keep running and enjoy this life, friend!